Mother’s Day

Two days ago it was Mother’s Day. My sister and I sent our mom to Ohio a couple weeks ago so she could take a break from the pain and lean on her older sister, as we once did with John. Initially, it was too difficult on her. If we’re honest, the feeling was mutual. When you lose someone close to you, someone that is integral to your daily existence, you feel this overwhelming sense of sadness when they are no longer there to share your latest EVERYTHING. Bear and I tried our damnedest to put on a front of happiness and hope. Do we believe things will get better? Absolutely. But we’re not there yet. So in the interim, we pretend for the sake of our beloved mom.

In a few hours my brother will have passed away three months ago. Three months!! I feel no less shocked, no less depressed, no less overwhelmed, no less heartbroken in the realization that he’s with us no more. I miss him more each day than I did before.